ok, i cant hold it in from you any longer. i have been keeping this secret for 7 years, and i cant hold it in any longer. when i was seve, i was molested by my brother. my own BROTHER!!! and after that, i hardly trust boys anymore. that is why most of my friends are girls. and plase dont tell some professional. i dont need the pressure..... i can still remember that night. i made this to tell you all about it. so you might get a hint of what its been like for me.
Speak
you told me to be quiet
and to not tell a soul
"its my favorite thing to play"
"you'll be the starring role".
and i guess i was...
i tried to tell someone
but nothing was ever done
you didnt think that i would remember
you thought i was too young
but i wasn't...
i go on through my life
trying to forget my past
and it worked for awhile
until at lastit was time for health class...
then everything came out
the horrible memories came through
and i could help but cry
how could you do this to me...
i remember your weight on my body
i thought i might break
and your tongue in my mouth
i still get sick and shake
at the very thought of you...
so now im coming clean
im trying to move on
but there is still an issue of trust
that must be won
before anyone can get near me...
so know you know, and i hope you dont feel different;y about me.
[A]ri
*is dying inside*
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Fuck my parenrt, I dont care if im not supposed to post anything anymore, Im posting this comment.
Joey.... I want to tell someone for you, but i understand the pressure you dont want to go under. Please... I know the best place... A place where you feel safe, a place where you go when you just need to have some kind of human body at your side... I have a broken home, and so do you. This place is my whole home. The people there.... they are my family. You would love it, more than anything there. You know how far I've come along? It's thanks to them. No, im not where near better yet, but thanks to them, I'm getting there.
I'll be there to, if you come with me. I will be there with you, so dont worry about that. I want to be there for you again, Joey... We've grown so far apart, and I don't want to separate from you. I need to be there for you. You're my brother. So please.... Just.... I'll tell you about everything. Every little bit about it. It's called Stainless.
Everyone there is broken, but this sin't some home for troubled kids, trust me.
This is my Youth Group. You need it, trust me. Please? I dont want to loose you. I love you, k? I want to say I know how you feel, but I dont. All I can say, is im here. I know... You probably want to hear mroe than that, but Im still here for you. I will always be here for you, no matter what.
Max.
i wud love to go but i havent even told my parents. wat wud i tell them about going to some youth group? really want to go. i dont want to loose u either. i love u. and that advise is all i have ever wanted to hear about this. thank you for being here 4 me, through thick and thin. i dont ever want to lose another family member ever again. it sucks.. it really does. i so glad u said those words to me, and i really want to go to Stainless. besides, wat does a youth group do anyway?
YES! JOEY YES!!! go to the youth group! I have only been there like 3 or 4 times, but it changed my life!!!! it really did! You would love it there! i know i do! i keep wanting to go back.... but i have no rides.... which sux.... cuz even i feel like they are my family! and I'm soooo sry about ur brother! i want to help u! i want to! but i think that our youth group could help u more then i can... they seriously do amazing things that i didn't think where possible! try to go there! they are amazing!
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